Dear Danny,
There is a poem I wrote a few years ago when my friend Tricia passed away. I came across it before your funeral and it shocked me at how relevant some of the feelings in the poem were to this situation now. I wanted to re-write it and make it more about you.
So I did and I think I did a pretty good job.
Here is the new and improved poem, especially for you:
Dear Danny,
Disappointment lingers inside of me all day, everyday.
I want to be strong enough to live and let go,
But something is always preventing me from being able to.
As soon as I feel forgiveness for you, my heart reminds me why it aches.
I can't find the motivation to live to my fullest potential,
Knowing you weren't able to do so yourself.
Therefore it wouldn't be fair for me to do so.
Wouldn't it be nice to make you proud of me, though?
Nothing has ever hurt me this bad before.
Literally putting a stop to the world spinning around me.
It is as though I am cemented to the ground,
I am unable to move forward, and barely remembering to breathe.
Tears fill my eyes at the very thought of you.
I long to hear your voice just one more time.
The memories we've made continuously flood my mind,
Keeping me at some sort of ease until I can see you again.
Knowing I'll see you again brings comfort.
Knowing it won't be in this life, however, is troubling.
I can't seem to find a perfect balance.
Its unfair that I am forced to wait what seems an eternity to see you again.
Forcing a smile has never hurt so much.
Telling people "I'm OK" is the biggest lie I could possibly tell.
But the feeling I get when I know you are standing by me
Has never brought more peace, especially on the hardest days.
Although it seems almost impossible and unbearable,
I know I must try to accept the fact that you are really gone.
Moving forward is the healthiest thing I can do for myself,
Even though there will be a permanent scar on my heart.
So here I go into the cold, harsh world,
Doing things you were never able to experience,
But keeping in mind that you are in a much better place,
Where you are no longer in pain and can never be harmed again.
Until we meet again,
I pray that you continue to feel my love for you.
I can't wait til we meet at Jesus' feet.
My Brother. My Hero. My Friend.
Love Always,
Talysa
There is a poem I wrote a few years ago when my friend Tricia passed away. I came across it before your funeral and it shocked me at how relevant some of the feelings in the poem were to this situation now. I wanted to re-write it and make it more about you.
So I did and I think I did a pretty good job.
Here is the new and improved poem, especially for you:
Dear Danny,
Disappointment lingers inside of me all day, everyday.
I want to be strong enough to live and let go,
But something is always preventing me from being able to.
As soon as I feel forgiveness for you, my heart reminds me why it aches.
I can't find the motivation to live to my fullest potential,
Knowing you weren't able to do so yourself.
Therefore it wouldn't be fair for me to do so.
Wouldn't it be nice to make you proud of me, though?
Nothing has ever hurt me this bad before.
Literally putting a stop to the world spinning around me.
It is as though I am cemented to the ground,
I am unable to move forward, and barely remembering to breathe.
Tears fill my eyes at the very thought of you.
I long to hear your voice just one more time.
The memories we've made continuously flood my mind,
Keeping me at some sort of ease until I can see you again.
Knowing I'll see you again brings comfort.
Knowing it won't be in this life, however, is troubling.
I can't seem to find a perfect balance.
Its unfair that I am forced to wait what seems an eternity to see you again.
Forcing a smile has never hurt so much.
Telling people "I'm OK" is the biggest lie I could possibly tell.
But the feeling I get when I know you are standing by me
Has never brought more peace, especially on the hardest days.
Although it seems almost impossible and unbearable,
I know I must try to accept the fact that you are really gone.
Moving forward is the healthiest thing I can do for myself,
Even though there will be a permanent scar on my heart.
So here I go into the cold, harsh world,
Doing things you were never able to experience,
But keeping in mind that you are in a much better place,
Where you are no longer in pain and can never be harmed again.
Until we meet again,
I pray that you continue to feel my love for you.
I can't wait til we meet at Jesus' feet.
My Brother. My Hero. My Friend.
Love Always,
Talysa
Bug your blog is one of the most honest things I have ever seen! You are an amazing person and I am so sorry for your loss and your pain! You and your family are all so amazing, and Danny is lucky to have such great people that love and care for him! I know things are hard, and I know nobody truly can understand your pain, but please know that we all love you, and pray for peace, love and comfort for your family daily. Love Kim
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