“You will lose someone you can’t live without,and your heart will be badly broken, and the bad news is that you never completely get over the loss of your beloved. But this is also the good news. They live forever in your broken heart that doesn’t seal back up. And you come through. It’s like having a broken leg that never heals perfectly—that still hurts when the weather gets cold, but you learn to dance with the limp.” -Anne Lamott

((If you are suffering and need help, but don't know where to start, please call the National Suicide Prevention Hotline at 1-800-273-8255))

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

11/12/11

Dear Danny,
I know that it has been days since I last wrote to you, and I apologize, but a lot has been going on. Zach Peffer took his life this past week, too. As soon as I found out, I prayed long and hard that you would watch over him and help him. You both need a little boost.
Today was his funeral. It felt like yours but 10x worse. It was so hard sitting through it! I cried so much because I was just thinking about you. I can't stop thinking about you! You are the #1 person on my mind, but don't tell Kellen that. He might get jealous =]
I still can't grasp that you are gone. I think it is slowly hitting me and becoming more of a reality to me instead of a foggy haze, though. I've been breaking down a lot lately. Yesterday, Mom, Kelsi, and I saw Mindy at the cemetery when we went to visit you. I feel so bad for her. I put myself in her place for the first time. Holy Smokes! If anything were to happen to Kellen I would be absolutely devastated! I really don't know what I would do without him. He really is the love of my life, my other half, cheesy I know, but I don't know how else to explain it. If he were to just leave my life out of nowhere, I would be a mess. I would be an even bigger mess than Mindy, because she's better at being strong! She can keep it together for longer than I can. She is truly amazing!!
I love you so much. My heart continues to ache for you, but I know I will find peace and comfort soon enough!
Love Always,
Talysa

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