Dear Danny,
Today I went back to work. After breaking down last night, though, I didn't know if I could do it. But I did. And it was hard. I couldn't help but think about the last time I was at work... They day I lost you. I hope that one day I will be able to share my feelings that are bottled up about that day, but its still too fresh for that.
I broke down again today, though. Luckily it was during the last hour of my shift, and my Managers are so understanding. I went and talked to my friend Carly. She was so sweet and patient with me. She just held me as I cried on her shoulder. That was just what I needed. We talked about you for a few minutes, then we started talking about wedding plans! She offered to do my wedding flowers, which was so kind of her. I really appreciate all the love I'm getting during this whole thing. The drive home from work sucked too. I had to go a different way than I did last time because I didn't want to get the anxiety I had before.
It was good to get home and curl up on the couch for a minute. Kelsi, Mom, and I went to the cemetery again. I broke down while we were there too. It just doesn't seem to get any easier yet.
I went to our phlebotomy class tonight. I was dreading it. I really didn't want to be there without you, but luckily Beth and Amy were really understanding. Me and Amy talked for about 30 minutes about the Plan of Salvation, and being able to see you again. Then I got to talk to Beth for a minute. She talked briefly of you, then tried to get my mind off things by talking to me about the wedding and possible job opportunities for me. They are both great teachers, and they both said you were a great student.
I was so excited to start taking phlebotomy. I'm glad that I found a center that could train me so quickly. But when you told me you wanted to do it with me, my excitement shot up even more. I was so excited to have our Monday night class together! I knew that it would make us bond more. I remember taking a class together before, and even though I ended up dropping it, I loved spending the time with you.
Every night for the past 2 weeks, when we have our family prayer, I cry. It doesn't matter what is being said. I miss you. I can't help but notice the circle got smaller. And its not because you are out with friends, or that you're out with Mindy, or on a vacation. It's because you are gone. And it hits me every night. We are so much closer as a family now. Its unfortunate we have to go on without you, but we keep remembering that we have each other through this. Its comforting.
I love you.
Love Always,
Talysa
Today I went back to work. After breaking down last night, though, I didn't know if I could do it. But I did. And it was hard. I couldn't help but think about the last time I was at work... They day I lost you. I hope that one day I will be able to share my feelings that are bottled up about that day, but its still too fresh for that.
I broke down again today, though. Luckily it was during the last hour of my shift, and my Managers are so understanding. I went and talked to my friend Carly. She was so sweet and patient with me. She just held me as I cried on her shoulder. That was just what I needed. We talked about you for a few minutes, then we started talking about wedding plans! She offered to do my wedding flowers, which was so kind of her. I really appreciate all the love I'm getting during this whole thing. The drive home from work sucked too. I had to go a different way than I did last time because I didn't want to get the anxiety I had before.
It was good to get home and curl up on the couch for a minute. Kelsi, Mom, and I went to the cemetery again. I broke down while we were there too. It just doesn't seem to get any easier yet.
I went to our phlebotomy class tonight. I was dreading it. I really didn't want to be there without you, but luckily Beth and Amy were really understanding. Me and Amy talked for about 30 minutes about the Plan of Salvation, and being able to see you again. Then I got to talk to Beth for a minute. She talked briefly of you, then tried to get my mind off things by talking to me about the wedding and possible job opportunities for me. They are both great teachers, and they both said you were a great student.
I was so excited to start taking phlebotomy. I'm glad that I found a center that could train me so quickly. But when you told me you wanted to do it with me, my excitement shot up even more. I was so excited to have our Monday night class together! I knew that it would make us bond more. I remember taking a class together before, and even though I ended up dropping it, I loved spending the time with you.
Every night for the past 2 weeks, when we have our family prayer, I cry. It doesn't matter what is being said. I miss you. I can't help but notice the circle got smaller. And its not because you are out with friends, or that you're out with Mindy, or on a vacation. It's because you are gone. And it hits me every night. We are so much closer as a family now. Its unfortunate we have to go on without you, but we keep remembering that we have each other through this. Its comforting.
I love you.
Love Always,
Talysa
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