“You will lose someone you can’t live without,and your heart will be badly broken, and the bad news is that you never completely get over the loss of your beloved. But this is also the good news. They live forever in your broken heart that doesn’t seal back up. And you come through. It’s like having a broken leg that never heals perfectly—that still hurts when the weather gets cold, but you learn to dance with the limp.” -Anne Lamott

((If you are suffering and need help, but don't know where to start, please call the National Suicide Prevention Hotline at 1-800-273-8255))

Monday, November 14, 2011

10/27/2011

Dear Danny,
You were such an amazing brother. It's really hard to believe you're gone. I still feel like its a dream. I'll wake up tomorrow, go eat breakfast, hear your door open, then the bathroom door close. Then, a few minutes later, you'll come upstairs, flick me, maybe call me a loser, get in the fridge, cook some turkey bacon, and then go to work. But that won't happen like it's supposed to anymore...
I am angry at you. I seriously can't believe you would do something like this to me. Don't you remember when you promised you would never leave me? Well you broke that promise, didn't you! And now I am unable to see you for such a long time.
I hurt so bad, Danny. Why did you leave me? Especially this way. Zero explanation, no note... I don't get it. You wouldn't have done that. You always left a note saying where you were going. Maybe you did call out to me, but I just wasn't listening. I'm sorry if I ever made you feel like you couldn't talk to me about things. I know I worry a lot, but really, its just because I love you and I want what's best for you. I can't help that I'm a lot like mom in that way. We both miss you like crazy, though.
Love Always,
Talysa

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