“You will lose someone you can’t live without,and your heart will be badly broken, and the bad news is that you never completely get over the loss of your beloved. But this is also the good news. They live forever in your broken heart that doesn’t seal back up. And you come through. It’s like having a broken leg that never heals perfectly—that still hurts when the weather gets cold, but you learn to dance with the limp.” -Anne Lamott

((If you are suffering and need help, but don't know where to start, please call the National Suicide Prevention Hotline at 1-800-273-8255))

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

11/1/2011

Dear Danny,
Today was your viewing. Talk about horrible! Ok, it actually wasn't as bad as I expected it to be. It did suck though. We got to see you, just as a family, a few hours before the view. THAT was hard! I'm so glad to know that you are not your body, because it looked nothing like you! Its amazing what your spirit does to you. It kind of comforts me, knowing that my spirit is really what makes me, me. NOT my body! We both know that I've been struggling for years with my body image, but I will have you know that Kellen has been helping me see the amazing person that I am, beyond my physical features.
Danny, Kellen is such an amazing guy! I wish you would have gotten to know him more, but I know you'll be getting to know him in your own way now and from a much larger distance.
How weird. I'm listening to Pandora 80s music and the song "What Is Love" comes on from "A Night At The Roxbury." This song and that movie definitely remind me of you. Especially of the music video you and Allan made when you were younger. You guys were did the dance moves and everything! It looked pretty legit!
I'm dreading tomorrow, Danny. I don't want to say goodbye. I know goodbye doesn't mean forever, but the 2nd Coming seems so far away now. I cannot wait for it, though. I am going to give you the biggest hug EVER and then smack you across the face for putting us through this! I have it all planned out!
I still can't believe this is happening. Day 6 and I'm still in denial. So many days have already gone by without you, but it feels more like years, and it has been hell since day one.
I know I didn't see you all the time before, but this is just completely unfair. All I ask is that you stay by my side and make your presence known when I need you the most. That is ALL I ask.
I love you so much!
Love Always,
Talysa

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